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WHO I AM

 

MY CONVERSION AND TESTIMONY

 

I was born and raised in what most people would describe as a Christian home. My parents, however, were not Christians in a biblical sense. They were not saved. They did not have a salvation experience in that they were never “born again” or “born from above” by the Holy Spirit of God, using the word of God. Never the less, I had good parents who loved me and took care of me. My father was firm but fair, yet the number of times he attended church services could be counted on one hand. My mother, however, considered it important to be at the church services as much as possible.

 

The church that we attended was a modern, liberal, protestant denominational church.  I can remember being taken to Sunday school as a young child and singing:

 

“Jesus loves me, this I know, for the Bible tells me so

Little ones to him belong; they are weak, but he is strong

Jesus loves me, He who died, heavens gate to open wide

He will wash away my sin; let His little child come in”

CHOROUS

“Yes Jesus love me, yes Jesus loves me

Yes Jesus loves me, The Bible tells me so.

 

I had the words on my lips but I did not have them in my heart.  I sang about Jesus and His love for me.  Even as I grew older, I did not know Jesus as my personal Saviour nor had His love ever really touched my heart.

 

Time passed on and when I was in my teen years the church services began to be less appealing to me.  They seemed, to me, to be dull and boring and of little value.  As a result, my attendance became less and less frequent, until as an older teen my mother could no longer persuade me to go to church.

 

A few years later I married, had a family and began to pursue my business career.  When I was in my early twenty’s I had some difficult years of sickness, an extreme nervous condition which, during one period, caused me to miss seven weeks of work and lose about twenty five pounds of weight.  During this period, I began to have difficulty breathing and as a result, my wife rushed me to the hospital.  I never expected to return home that night, but the God that I did not know, in His mercy, intervened.  Eventually I recovered and was able to return to work.  I did not know it at the time, but if I would have died that night, I would have died in my sins, without a Saviour.  My soul would have been in hell, a place that the Lord Jesus Christ called “outer darkness” where “there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth” (Mathew 8:12). 

 

I continued to pursue my work career.  I always thought I was a “ good “ person.  I thought that God would see that my “goodness” would far outweigh my “badness” and that all would some how be well.  I thought that one day I would be in heaven when I passed from this scene.  I did not know the Word of God and the scripture that says “they measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves among themselves are not wise” (2 Corinthians 10:12).

 

When I was thirty years of age and incident occurred while I was at my place of employment.  I was swearing, taking the Lord’s Name in vain which was my habit to do.  I did not know it at that time but my supervisor, who was a Christian, overheard my profanity and was offended.  This led to a discussion, during which, my supervisor gave me some gospel tracts to read.  Later on, in the weeks to follow, I was given other gospel tracts to read.  I was also encouraged to read portions of the Bible, such as Romans, chapter three and the Gospel of John among others.

 

From the very beginning, I was receptive to the information I was reading.  I believed the information to be true and the Bible to be the truth of God’s Word.  I did not know what was happening at the time but I began to feel the heavy burden of my sins.  Later on I learned that the Holy Spirit of God was dealing with me, convicting me of my sins as it says in (John 16:8) “When He (the Holy Spirit) is come, He will reprove (convince or convict) the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment”.  During this period, I realized for the first time in my life that I was indeed a sinner and needed a Saviour. (Romans 3:9, 10, 23) says “Jews and Gentiles – they are all under sin”.  “There is none righteous, no not one”.  “All have sinned and come short of the glory of God”.  If God’s Word says “all”, then it must include me.  If I did not get saved my eternal destiny would be hell, not heaven, as I mistakenly thought all of my life.  God’s Word says “the wages of sin is death” (Romans 6:23).  I knew that I needed to be saved.  From reading the gospel of John, chapter 3, I knew that the Lord Jesus Christ said (verse 3) “Verily, verily I say unto thee, except a man be born again he cannot see the kingdom of God”.  Also in (verse 7) “you must be born again”.  The “new birth” (the need to be born again) was to me like the door to heaven, through which I could not pass.  During this time I had almost daily conversations with my Christian supervisor.  He would always ask me “are you saved yet”?  I would reply, “No I’m not saved but I believe the Bible to be the truth of God’s Word”.  Many weeks went by.  I continued to feel the heavy burden of my sins.  Repentance (a change of mind, a turning from sin and a turning from God) was evident in my life.  Yet, I still was not saved.  I was frustrated because I wanted to be saved.  I wanted to be “born again” but I knew that I was not.  It was at this time a gospel tract was given to me.  It was titled “Safety, Certainty, and Enjoyment” by George Cutting.  In the booklet he said we are all traveling from “time into eternity”.  He asked the question – “Which class are you traveling “?  There are but three: 

 

·        First Class – Those who are saved and know it.

 

·        Second Class – Those who are not sure of salvation, but anxious to be so.       

 

·        Third Class – Those who are not only unsaved, but totally indifferent about it.

 

I immediately recognized that I was in the “Second Class”.  From reading the booklet I realized that I was “trying to get saved”.  I was “trying to be born again”.  Instead of “trying”, I should have been “trusting”, trusting God and trusting God’s Word when he says, for example;

 

(John 6:47) “Verily, verily, I say unto you, he that believeth on me HATH everlasting life”.

 

(1 John 5:13)  “These things have I written onto you that believe on the Name of the Son of God, THAT YE MAY KNOW that ye have eternal life”. 

 

 

(Acts 16:30, 31) “What must I do to be saved?  Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved”.  The light of God shined into my darkened soul.  In simple faith I received Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour.  My heavy burden of sin was gone.  God saved me by His grace, (Ephesians 2:8, 9) “by grace are you saved through faith, and that not of yourselves:  it is the gift of God, not of works, lest any man should boast”. 

 

“Amazing grace how sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me

I once was lost, but now am found

Was blind, but now I see”

 

“AND WHEN LIFE’S JOURNEY IS OVER, AND I THE DEAR SAVIOR SHALL SEE,

I’LL PRAISE HIM FOR EVER AND EVER, FOR SAVING A SINNER LIKE ME.”

 

These events took place over thirty years ago.  The passing of time has only made my spiritual birth and my years as a child of God more precious to me.  I thank God for saving me as one who was an unworthy, undeserving and uncaring sinner.  There is a scripture verse in (Romans 10:20) that describes my conversion perfectly.  “I was found of them that sought me not, I was made manifest unto them that asked not after me”.  I was not seeking him (God, my Saviour) but I found Him (or rather He found me).  I did not ask after Him, yet He was made manifest unto me. 

 

I want to thank also KMc, the man who first spoke to me about my need to be saved.  God used his faithful testimony to make me aware of my lost ruined condition and God’s remedy and salvation through His beloved Son.  KMc and I became good friends.  More than a friend, he is my dear beloved brother in the Lord.  By God’s grace we worked together, or near each other, for over thirty years and enjoyed many good times of Christian fellowship. 

 

This website has been established to make known to you “God’s Way of Salvation” as revealed in His Word, the Bible.  (2 Peter 3:9) “The Lord - - is long suffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance”.  It is not the will of God that anyone dies in their sins and goes out into a lost eternity, banished from the presence of God forever.  Read (Luke 16:22,23,):  (Matthew 22:13) : (Revelation 20:15 ; 21; 8).  Not only is God not willing that any should perish but He has the power to save anyone who believes the message of the Gospel, for it says (Romans 1:16) “The gospel of Christ - - is the power of God unto salvation to everyone that believeth”.  God is saving souls in these days just as He did in the beginning of this dispensation of Grace, for it says in (Acts 2:47) “The Lord added to the church daily such as should be saved”. 

 

My prayer is that you, who are reading this information, will also be saved and have a conversion experience as I did.  May it be so for God’s glory and honor, and the eternal well being of your soul.

 

 

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